Jess's Personal Dictionary
I guess I'm special, but this is my personal dictionary. This is what words mean to me. Check it out! Here are the words I have so far:
1) Friends
2) Hope
3) Love
4) Memory
5) Music
6) Trust
More to come!
- Jess
By the way, these are also posted in my blog, so please comment! (Click on the "My Dictionary" tag.)
Friends
Friends --> Friends are pretty much indescribably. They're the people who walk in when everyone else walks out. And sometimes, you just can't stand them, but you love them for being annoying because you know that in the end, you love them for everything they do. They're like those annoying cramps you get in your stomach when you laugh too much, but you love that feeling because you know that's what it's like to be happy. They love you for who you are and you love them for the same reason! And they are what continue to make my world turn. <3
Memory
Memory --> Memories are like stepping stones, they are what we use to pave the path ahead of us and lead us to success. I strongly believe that by relinquishing memories, you are relinquishing who you are and where you stand in life. Without memories, we would all be like children, wandering in the woods after dark having lost sight of the only trail that can lead us home. That is what the word memory means to me.
Music
Music --> Music, quite simply, is magic. It's one of the few ways someone can tell you, honestly, that you're not alone. It's just a bunch of chords thrown together by someone who needed to be heard, sung for a bunch of people who need to hear that magical, "I understand, and you know what? It sucks, but it'll be okay. I promise." It's an escape for some, and outlet for others. It allows you to let go of everything and just break down. You can choose to make it, or receive it, or both. But unlike anything else in the world, it's something that's about everyone yet, at the same time, about only you. It's portable love, acceptance, and understanding. It's the words of a million people, sung through the voice of one. Like I said, music is magic. Nothing more, nothing less: Magic.
Hope
Hope --> Hope is one of the most powerful catalysts for change. Change begins with an idea. The idea is like a spark, and when you feed a spark oxygen, it can grow into a roaring flame capable of warming a soul, saving a life, or destroying a world. Hope is that oxygen. Hope is what feeds our ideas, makes change, and is capable of altering everything about its surroundings both for the good or the bad. Hope is what gives us strength to wait out the night in order to see a new dawn. Hope is the umbrella that makes the pouring rain bearable, perhaps it cannot keep you completely dry, but it protects you nonetheless. Hope is the lifeboat that keeps you afloat when all else fails. Hope is what keeps my world turning.
Love
Love --> Love is like water. It's malleable and can take the shape of anything. Like your friends and family, each individual is different, and your love for each person and each person's love for you changes, bends, and is recreated every time you see them. Also like water, love can fall in little drops that tickle you as they slide down your face, or it can fall in fierce storms that overwhelm you and leave you breathless, or it can form in giant oceans, immersing you and plunging you into a new world that you can't escape from (not that you would ever want to). Love is like the waters of our world, without love, there would be no life.
Trust
Trust –-> By trusting, one opens a new doorway in life. Before we choose to open that door and place our trust in an individual, we will already have an idea of what lies beyond the door. People who have been through the door of an individual's trust can speak of what lies on the other side. The door itself speaks for what lies on the other side. But a person will only know what lies on the other side when they choose to open the door for themselves. By trusting, we place absolute faith in another, giving them the power to hurt you, or turn against you, but trusting that they won’t. Oftentimes, trust is a lifeboat, and the trusted person is a sanctuary. Trust is earned. Trust can be lost. And lost trust is hard, if not impossible, to gain back. A person’s trust is something to respect and value, and to me, to be trusted is the greatest honour a friendship can create.
Freshman Year Dedications
Dear Everyone Who's Been A Part Of My First Year at SAS,
THANK YOU! It's you guys that have made this year amazing and worthwhile for me. It's you guys that have showed me that it's possible for me to finally call Shanghai "HOME". It's you guys that chosen to trust me, and it may not seem like much, but it means the world to me. It's you guys that have helped me pull through this year. It's you guys that I owe for every happy moment. This section is about you, for you, to thank you. I love you guys so much, and whether we have more years to look forwards to together, or our journey together has ended here, you will always be remembered. To those who are leaving, good luck at your new schools and the rest of your futures. I'll miss you (I'm sure everyone will) and promise me we'll stay in touch. To those who are staying, thanks for this year, and I'm looking forwards to next year. To the entire group, THANK YOU FOR AN AMAZING YEAR AND HAVE A SAFE AND KICK-ASS SUMMER!
I LUV YOU GUYS!
- Jessica Hao
To Kathy Mo
To my Psychic Lesbo Lover Kathy Mo!
First and foremost, without you, I would’ve never met all the amazing people I have met this year. You were the first one to reach out a hand and say, “Join us Noob!” and if you hadn’t, I’m sure this year would’ve turned out much much differently. There’ve been too many good times with you to count! Despite the fact that your mom is way uptight and we’ve had NO classes together this year, we’ve managed to rack up quite a count of amazing times. I guess it all started with the pad/tampon incident involving Stoner on the bus and led to the numerous other “partner” hobbies we’ve created since. You probably know what I’m thinking about right now. Which brings me to my next point, PSYCHIC-NESS! Yes, that’s been pretty amazing. There have been three people in my entire life who’ve ever had a psychic connection with me, Kathy, you are one of them. The other two were my white-sister back in Canadia, Sarah Johnson, and my best friend (who is also in Canadia), Taiji Wang. You three are now my epic psychic friends who will always be my epic psychic friends. But I must say, our psychic conversations have been much more interesting than those I’ve had with the other two. Either they don’t care enough about me to have interesting conversations with me, or our psychic connection is stronger. I’ll pick the second option. We are psychic-ly amazing, and amazingly psychic! XD
Despite this entire year of insanity, I have to say, I definitely think the best were these last few weeks. The exam-week couch hangouts and subsequent bitching and throwing of random objects made exams totally bearable and that last day and the Pizza Hut outing were AH-MAZE-ING (in Jess-talk). I’m gonna miss you SOOOOOOOOOOOOO much next year, but let’s hope that this summer will hold even more fun things, and possibly a scrapbook to finish it off. I love you, and I always will, and you’ll always have a special spot in my heart in the shape of “KATHERINE MO ~ PSYCHIC LESBO LOVERS 4EVER”. Good luck in Connecticut, and wherever else life may take you! And remember, that no matter what, I’ll always be here for you!
In the totally NON-cheesy words of Chance, “as you blaze your way through life”, Jess would like to remind you to remember to stop and smell the flowers every once in a while!
I love you,
Jess
XOXOXO
To Maxime Ming Wang
To Chance, who's always been there even when he really didn't want to be there (cough, cough, ktv, cough)!
Okay, first of all, I am way pro. I know your middle name! But that wasn't really about you...I get side-tracked easily, ANYWHO (you introduced me to that phrase), HI! Wow, um, it's kinda hard to sum up our year...because well, there's been too much of it!!!!! If I ended it at that, it would probably be cheating (and cheating isn't the point of writing these things...) SO I'm going to try very hard to remember EVERYTHING that we did this year!
There was...
English Class: (well you gotta start somewhere...) OH-EM-GEE. (I am using caps lock a lot today, aren't I?) English class was by far one of my favourite classes this year (the other one being math, mainly because I didn't do any work at all...). You and Holly were amazing buddies! (And getting to cheat in the vocab sheets every once in a while...well almost every time...was a nice change for me!) I'm going to miss having that class with you! Hopefully next year we'll have history or English or math or gym or flex or science or something together!
JinQiao Outings: Okay, so maybe I wasn't present for some of those (or rather, most of those) but still, the ones I went to were awesome! And your mom is amazing! (So is attacking the stuff in your room!) I laugh a lot around you...most (if not all) of my major laughing fits have taken place with you somewhere in the immediate vicinity...Scary. I think you bring out the insanity in me! The only people who happen to have that skill seems to be you, K, and a few of my middle schoolers...although the latter doesn't count because when I'm exhausted to the point of losing it, strange things are bound to happen.
FRENCH TRIP! One word (or name). Emel. HAHAHAHAHA LMFAO. At the moment when she asked, it was so not funny, but afterwards, it was so funny! I think I spent the entire trip with you...and all the pictures! And the picture taking withdrawal! I don't think I will meet anyone else quite as amazing as you are! Oh, and the hair...oh what are we gonna do about that hair obsession?!?!?! (That reminds me, YOU MUST MEET GABRIEL.)
Almost Summer and SUMMER: haha, amazing yearbook art! (and other art, might I add!) And books! AHHHH BOOKS = LIFE!!!!!! <3
Okay, material stuff aside, I'd really like to say this: I AM REALLY GLAD YOU TRUSTED ME, before the formal last year. Because it was the first time that I felt like I really belonged. That this was my home. That you guys were my family. Seriously, moving here was like jumping off a cliff for me, and I was clinging to the edge in hopes that maybe if I never settled, I'd never have to jump off a cliff again. But I kinda realized then that it wasn't worth missing having friend like you two and I let go. And the rest of the year went a lot smoother.
IT'S BEEN AN AMAZING YEAR. (Don't argue with me. Just don't.) And I can't believe it's over! I can't wait til next year starts! (Actually, I can't wait til you get back in town. That will make me happy.) I'm totally looking forward to another awesome year next year, with hopefully more (or maybe safely less) insanity and fun! Luv you!
<3 - Jess
P.S. Why is your post soooooooo long?
To Asumi Matsumoto
To my amazing hand-sex buddy!
You have to get out more! I've never hung out with you outside of school! We only had one class together this year, but there were so many out of this world moments we've had then that I guess it didn't really matter that it was only eighty minutes every other day! We do a lot of laughing! (And for once, it's not just me, it's you too!) The couch days were heaven. The girl talks can't be classified as heaven, but they were awesome for their own purposes! And none of us can shoot paper-cups, but IT'S OKAY!
Oh, I forgot to add that you were also my pain buddy! LMAO, yes. French Trip. Post-French Trip. We are such masochists...but I guess that's okay too...it's called DEDICATION people! Jeez. I'm going to miss those! (That needs to be made a tradition we keep next year!)
Your such an honest and bubbly person! If I could find a fault about you, I would probably put it here, but I can't, and thus I won't. Hopefully, we'll be together more next year! (It's too bad that I can't do Dance with you...) But I still can't wait, and I still think it will be great! Stay cool!
Lots of Love!
- Jess <3
To Holly Lu
To the crazy lady that started it all!
By "all", I am referring to the KTV craze! You've been with me almost every time I've gone...Holly, do you realize that your the only person I've sleep over with here? (My mom went paranoid afterwards...I don't know why...) The one thing I love about being around you is how comfortable you are with just letting loose and being insane! It makes it so much funner to be around you and the craziness is totally infectious. I've been over to your house A LOT. Like, yeah...you know what I mean...
One really prominent memory: FOXTOWN. You, running around, doing your thing. Me, why am I here again? Lmao! And then we had all those amazing mall trips and KTV trips and moments where we were being amazing. We had a lot of those moments. And then you left to go to Taiwan without me. Next year, I'm going in your luggage, you hear me?!?!?! I'M GOING IN YOUR LUGGAGE!
It's been awesome to have someone to laugh with and sing with and go crazy with! Don't ever leave me! I can't wait til next year! Eternal loveness forever! <3
- Jess